i think things are catching up on me like they do. from have a bizzy scedual latley. but also could be due to a few things like my meds ive been taking them at rong times so there a litte out of wake well my mood stabilizers any way all due to because weve been out or just bizzy. witch makes it hard. co i dont take them in front of people. they dont no nor would they under stand. didnt go to the gym to day. slept in to 9am cos didnt have any work to day so didnt stick to my routin witch we no is crusial for use to stay in better moodsand went to bed late last night cos we didnt get home till midnight so missed dinner so all they things play a part in why i feel the way i do to day. but its just the way it is. as a cyclothynia i cope better with routin and all the right things other wise i end up feeling the way i do. im on the coutch i cant be bothered doing any thing im real sloppy. feel down not exactly depressed well not yet. but i now when my hustsband gets home from work things may be a bit better cos i wont be along ill have company. and i miss him when im like this. but to morrow will be a different day hopefully ill get up early and go to work and that should make me feel better for the day. i know the littlest things have such an impacte on how we feel and its the trick and half the answer to help us feel better stick to our routins. and try nit to slip but some times we cant help it.

woke up was feeling good. went gym be4 work. showered 3 people and cleand a house. come home. now ill just quickly tell u so u now what im on about lol. my uncal lives far away flew in last night cam to pick up computer then flys out again tomorrow. now i get a phone call from husband. saying uncal ran. arr yer what hye say. he can come to do it and we have to go in to town to do it for him. now husband dosnt get home to 6pm so then we have to drve 40 klm back into town after hes just come all that way from work then i gott hand around and wait till hes transfered crap on to computer then come home. now its a working week. my phycologist and phyciyitrise tell me i need routin and exercise it will help me be a bit more stable. so when some thing recks my routin i get really up set cos im really trying. but when u have to do this crap all the time for people were are they when u need them. and we get home late and i miss my tv shows. i know its called frigen loosen up and get over it but im really set in my way in the week days cos its hard enough for me to work as it is. i couls be a bum and not work. but were would that get me and it shore wont help my illness. im just sooking blah blah blah oh man it makes ya peed off

sorry for some reason i write my replys and then submit them and there not there. so i am sorry living well and crackgirl and kosh 69. its only on my blogs.

well ive had a big week. worked more than usal all ast week. then followed bye a big weekend. friday we packed up and drove 300kl 3 hour drive to my dads seen my brother 12 sisters 10 and 6. spent time with them reading books playing bord games. and painting on paper and mixed pain coluers. although i was brushing the little ones hair and she had nits every where like i mean bugs running through her head and eggs every were. apparently there mothere new about it but she just has not very good parenting skiills. shes not my mother. so dad had some product for it. so i did the little ones hair. so hope fully it killed most of them the other to had them as well. i told them to get there mum to do there hair again to make shore. the poor little one she had bites every were here neck was red and lumps. like why dont parents monoter there children some times and take note of there things. because the child is the one that suffers in the end.but my moods have been really good. no sudden change over the weekend. i better not talk to soon

when to the gym at 6:30am then from there to work showered an man and then did the house cleaning for the wife. then went off to my husbands antys house and had coffee. now we are off to a friends parents house for dinner together. then by the time we get home it will be off to be and then work again tomorrow.